Starr & Cole [2009]

Cole: (to Starr) I can't sleep anymore. Can you? Could you eat today, because I couldn't. When was the last time that you laughed, or even smiled? You're still crying every day, I can tell. Nothing makes sense anymore.


Starr: (to Cole) When you thought your mother was gone, Cole, when you thought that you'd lost her? Do you remember all of those feelings, how scared you were, how much pain you were in? When you thought that you were never going to see me forever? That's how this whole thing started. We made a mistake, Cole. People make mistakes, and nobody's pain is more important than anybody else's. We are all hurting, all of us.


Cole: I walk into a classroom and you're grinding on some teacher?
Starr: I was not grinding on him, okay? I was giving him a hug because of what happened to his mother.
Cole: Whatever turns you on, sweetheart.


[Cole finds out that Starr was prescribed antidepressants]
Starr: I'm unhappy. There's a difference. I don't feel like I need pills to take that away.
Cole: You must be a stronger person than I am.


Cole: Are you talking to me again?
Starr: Depends. Are you high?
Cole: What, you want me to pee in a cup or something?


Starr: I don't like what you're doing. That does not mean that I don't like you.
Cole: That's too bad. Because they're the same thing.


Starr: Cole, I know that you are pissed at me for giving my dad a free pass. I get that. I would be mad at me, too, if I were you. But I couldn't do it, Cole. I couldn't be the one to send my dad to prison.
Cole: Okay, fine. Yeah, I see, I see, so you were going to let this Halpern lady do it for you. But now she's dead, so your dad walks. Thank you so much for screwing over me and my mom.


[Seeing a newspaper headline about a brawl involving Todd, Marty and Blair]
Cole: Our parents, doing us proud as usual.
Starr: I could die.


Starr: (to Cole) You know that Wes guy pulled a knife on my dad? He could have killed him.
[Cole gives Starr a "look"]
Starr: ...I guess you wouldn't have been upset about that.


Starr: I still care about you, and it is killing me to watch you fade away like this.
Cole: "Fade away"? What does that even mean?


Starr: I was really upset when I left you that message.
Cole: Well, I was upset when I caught Joplin’s tongue in your mouth. Now, I didn't send you a message saying, "I don't care what happens to you anymore."
Starr: No, you just swallowed pills.


[On Schuyler kissing Starr]
Cole: What he did was wrong, Starr.
Starr: No, what I did was wrong. I kissed him.
Cole: Is that supposed to make me feel better?


Starr: What I said in that message, I did not mean. I care about you, and I always will.
Cole: I would love to stay and talk, but I have to go pee in a cup.


Starr: I'm just really glad that my dad wasn't the one who was shot.
Cole: I'm glad, too. For your sake.


[Cole wants to find out about Hope's "cause of death"]
Cole: Starr, she was our daughter. I mean, how -- how can we live with not knowing? Doesn't she deserve better?
Starr: She deserves a life. She should be -- she should be learning how to sit up like -- like Chloe. She should -- she should have her first teeth, her first words, her first day of school, her -- her first kiss. But I've made peace with it.


[Starr finds out that Cole has pills on him]
Cole: I haven't used any of these. I really haven't. Look, I have a drug test this week. Why would I get high?
Starr: So you stole them from the hospital as what, a souvenir?


[As Starr tries to help Cole de-tox, she tells him a fairy tale about their relationship]
Starr: Do you remember when we were at that party with Brittany, and she spilled that drink all over me, and that really hot guy lent me his sweats to change into? That's when the football player and the geeky girl became friends. At first, it started out that they were just friends. Then it turned out that they were much, much more. They loved each other. They had some major problems. But whenever they were together, it felt right. It was good. They loved each other so, so much. And then the geeky girl's father did a terrible thing. He told them that they were never going to see each other again. So they made love. It was beautiful.
Cole: Then it wasn't.


[Starr continues the fairy tale]
Starr: Come on, you have to drink or else I'm not going to tell you the rest of what happens.
Cole: To the smart, funny girl and the dumb jock football player?
Starr: He was not dumb. He was sweet. And he treated the geeky girl better than any boy had ever treated her. But her messed-up father couldn't see that. He thought that all boys were like him when he was young. So he did awful things to the boy the geeky girl loved.
Cole: The goofy football player didn't care what happened to him. He loved the girl.
Starr: And then they found out that they were having a baby together. The football player then asked the girl to take some time to think before she got an abortion. And that's when they ran away together. Then the girl missed her messed-up family. She was so scared. She knew she wasn't ready to be a mother. But she didn't know how to tell him. She knew he wanted to keep the baby. She didn't want to disappoint him.
Cole: The girl could never disappoint him.
Starr: And then her father showed up. She decided to give the baby up. Even though she was hurting the boy, she didn't know what else to do. She wasn't ready to be a mom. Not even for him. They tried to stay together, but it was too hard. They could barely even be friends. And then they lost the baby. And that was just the worst. They thought that that was it for them. But then it wasn't. The girl tried to hook up with someone she shouldn't have.
Cole: And the boy got hooked on drugs.
Starr: But now he's going to get better. And she's going to make sure of it. And she will never let anything bad happen to him ever again. She promises.


Cole: I'm clean now because of you. I couldn't have done it without you. How -- how am I supposed to thank someone for that?
Starr: You don't have to. I have the old you back and that's all I've ever wanted.


Starr: (to Cole, about Schuyler) I told him that my feelings for him were bogus. And that even though I did lean on him, it's because I wanted to go to you.


Cole: (about Hope) You know, I think about her sometimes, what she looked like.
Starr: I see her with your eyes.
Cole: Your smile.


Starr: Aunt Dorian gave Langston a French condom holder.
Cole: A French what?
Starr: And it was filled with them.
Cole: So, that's going on my Christmas list.


[Langston is preparing to lose her virginity to Markko]
Langston: Were you nervous with Cole?
Starr: It wasn't exactly the same. Cole and I didn't know what we were doing.
Langston: But maybe that's the problem. This is so not spontaneous.
Starr: Come here. It's better off that way. You won't mess up like Cole and I did.


Starr: I guess I just did what the D.J. said -- I "dared to dream."
Cole: About?
Starr: Hope, 16 years from now. She would be having some boy pick her up for her prom.
Cole: And I'd want to kill him.
Starr: And I would say, "She can't be our little girl forever."
Cole: And I would say, "She will always be our little girl."
Starr: But she would want to grow up and have her own life like we did.
Cole: It still doesn't make it any easier.


[Starr has a theory that Hope didn't really die]
Starr: When I held Jessica’s little girl, Chloe, I had this overwhelming feeling that our baby was still alive.
Cole: Why didn't you say something?
Starr: Because I knew that you would look at me like you're looking at me right now.


Cole: (about Hope) I can't keep wanting something that I can't have. That’s how I ruined things with you and me, why I started getting high, why I hurt Matthew. I can't run away from what is. I have to stay in the day, right here, right now, because most things -- once you lose them, they're gone.
Starr: But some things never go away.


[Starr and Cole learn that Hope is alive]
Cole: Starr, our baby's alive.
Starr: Cole, I -- I obviously haven't felt this way since I was in the hospital and they told me she was fine.
Cole: This time she is.
Starr: But I don't know if I can believe it, not until I'm holding her.
Cole: We did this. It was because we kept asking questions. Now we know that our baby's alive.
Starr: You really think it was us?
Cole: Yeah. You and me, we -- we're not a bad combination. I'm staying sober because you believed that I could do it. We got through that together. And we're going to get through this together.


Starr: (holding Hope) I can't believe that she's here.
Cole: It's like this dream that I kept having, only I don't have to wake up and make myself believe that it's not true.
Starr: Do you want to hold her?
Cole: I've never held a baby before.
Starr: You didn't get to hold her before. Here.


Cole: (about Hope) I think she looks like Starr.
Starr: I think that she looks like the perfect mix of all of us. Cramer, Manning, Saybrooke, Thornhart, all of us.


[Cole sees Starr with Hope]
Cole: What's going on?
Starr: Marcie tore up the adoption papers. She's ours, Cole. Hope is ours again.
Cole: Hope is ours? For good?
Starr: Yes.


Cole: I know you actually think that everything's going to be okay.
Starr: And you don't?
Cole: How can you believe in me when I don't even believe in myself?


[Cole is facing a year in jail]
Starr: How could I ever forget you?
Cole: A lot can change in a year.
Starr: You're right, a lot can. We lost our baby, we lost each other. But look at how close we are now. We just got our baby back, and I think we're getting us back, too.
Cole: What do you mean?
Starr: Cole, I -- I love you.
Cole: You do?
Starr: I never stopped. And even six months, a year, two, or five years from now, I'll still love you.
Cole: I never thought I'd hear you say those words again.
Starr: Well, get used to it. Because I'm going to keep saying them. I love you. I really, really love you.
Cole: I love you, too.


[Cole's marriage proposal to Starr]
Cole: Starr -- I love you so much. And the only way that I can be away from you and our baby is to know that I have you in another way. Will you marry me?


[Todd has given his consent to Starr and Cole's marriage]
Starr: What was that?
Cole: Alien abduction. Yeah, aliens definitely took your dad and left behind a pod person.
Starr: Yeah, a Todd pod.


Starr: What if I screw it up?
Cole: It's not possible.
Starr: That's what my family does. They always are screwing things up. Look at my parents.
Cole: You're actually comparing us to your mom and dad?
Starr: Well, I am their daughter.
Cole: Starr, you're nothing like them. We're nothing like them. We only want good things for each other. We don't use other people to try to hurt each other. And most of all, we love each other.


[Starr has decided to call off the wedding to Cole]
Starr: It just seems like every time we do something or make a big decision, it's because of some crazy situation that we're in.
Cole: Not always.
Starr: Yes. The first time we made love, it was because we thought that we were never going to see each other again. And then when we ran away, it was because we thought my dad was going to kill you when he found out that I was pregnant. And this, I said that I would marry you because I wanted you to have something to hold onto while you were in prison.
Cole: I thought you wanted it for yourself, too.
Starr: I did. But honestly, would you have gotten down on one knee and proposed to me if you didn't think that you were going to be sent away? It's not the right thing to do, and I think you know that. Your dad gave your mom that ring when he asked her to marry him. And I want to get married for the same reasons that they did. For love and love only, not -- not because our back is against a wall. I want to have a real wedding. I want everyone to be happy for us. And I don't want my mom's face to look like it did today. I want to have all of the dresses and the big party and all the stuff that sounds silly, but it really does mean something. And I want us to stand in a beautiful place and say "I do." And I want our daughter to be old enough to watch it happen and for her to know how much we love each other. That's what I really want. And I hope that you want that, too.


Starr: Are you sure you're okay with all this?
Cole: Well, I was a little freaked out. I mean, this day has turned out way different than I thought it was going to. But, you know, you're right, you know? Waiting makes the most sense.
Starr: I'm so crazy about you.
Cole: And I love you. You deserve the wedding of your dreams -- not some thrown-together thing for the wrong reasons.
Starr: Well, you deserve that, too.


Cole: You want me to sleep over? Tonight?
Starr: I want us to do more than sleep. I want us to be together, together. Well?
Cole: Uh, I want to be with you more than anything.
Starr: It'll be perfect this time.


Starr: Wait till you see Hope when she wakes up in the morning. She doesn't even cry. She just sits there and she holds her feet and she just talks to herself. It's so cute, and she reminds me of you when you were sleeping. Hmm.
Cole: I love you so much.
Starr: I love you so much.
[Suddenly Hope starts crying]
Cole: I, uh, I guess she does her crying at night.


Starr: I really can't believe this is happening. This is our first night together since we-- since we made Hope.
Cole: Starr, this is our chance. We can erase the way our first time ended. Start all over again, a new beginning. I've been imagining this for so long.
Starr: So have I. Everything is going to be different this time.


Starr: I don't want to move.
Cole: Me, neither. I laid here with my eyes closed for like an hour.
Starr: Well, maybe if we don't move, the night'll never end.
Cole: Tried it. Didn't work. But if I have to wake up, I'm glad it's with you.


Starr: I'm not letting you walk away, not when you look like you're falling apart. Hope needs you and I need you.
Cole: The baby card? Really?


[Starr and Cole reluctantly attend Todd and Tea's wedding]
Cole: They're gonna have food at this thing, right?
Starr: Yeah. Yeah, and good food, too. Good enough to make it worth watching my dad get married again.
Cole: It's just weird being here to support a guy who's tried to stop us from being together, what, how many times now?
Starr: If you want to go, we can go.
Cole: And have my future father-in-law blame me for you not being at his wedding?
Starr: You're thinking about our future, huh?
Cole: Try to stop me.


[Tea makes a reference to her last wedding to Todd]
Layla: What happened the last time?
Téa: The groom showed up in a glass coffin. It all went downhill from there.
Cole: (to Starr) Your dad is having nothing to do with planning our wedding.


Starr: See? That's why I love you. You put up with my family. They're a freak show riding on a roller coaster in the house of horrors.
Cole: Okay, well, if you're on it, I'll take that ride a million times. Although I think we should probably buy Hope a helmet.


[Starr and Cole try to find a place they can have a romantic evening]
Starr: La Boulaie is swarming with paparazzi. They're trying to catch my Aunt Dorian and her campaign manager, so we'll just go to your place.
Cole: Markko's doing a night shoot there for his class project.
Starr: All night long? Are you kidding me?
Cole: I wish I was.
Starr: God doesn't want me to have sex more than once a year.


[After blowing out the candles on Hope's cake]
Starr: What do you think she wished for?
Cole: Uh, I don't know. Maybe some wings for her stroller. Or all the icing she can eat.
Starr: Do you think she even knows it's her birthday?
Cole: Probably not. Ever since we got her back, we act like every day's her birthday.


Cole: I have a term paper on psychology.
Starr: Well, if you want a case study, there's always my family.


[Cole realizes that Starr is eavesdropping on his Christmas present conversation with Markko]
Cole: Okay, I was thinking for Christmas, Starr would really, really love an umbrella.
Starr: An umbrella?
Cole: Yeah, that's what you get for listening in.
Starr: I would love an umbrella.


Starr: It's not that I don't love my dad, but he put us through so much trying to keep us apart.
Cole: That doesn't matter now, okay?
Starr: I know, but I never want Hope to go through something like that. I want her to be as happy as we are right now and never go through anything.
Cole: She won't. Hey, not from me. Okay, our little girl's gonna have it a lot easier than you did.


[Delphina is making predictions]
Cole: (to Starr) Come on. You're not actually listening to this?
Delphina: Oh, goody. A nonbeliever.
Cole: You haven't predicted anything.
Starr: She just predicted someone's death.
Cole: And you don't want her to be a little more specific?